I couldn't move.
As she continued, the knots inside me got tighter. My body was numb.
She said he was on top of her. She could hardly breathe. Yes, she liked him, but she gave no consent. Over and over again she said no, but he didn't listen. She laid there helpless on the floor in her own dorm room while he greedily stripped from her what she wanted to hold longer.
Thankfully, she had enough courage to report what happened after a few days.
His punishment? He wasn't allowed to go into her dorm for a semester.
What happened months later? Two thousand people signed a petition that she was lying.
To put it lightly, I was angry.
How dare he do that to her and barely get punished for it. Is there no justice in this country?
And not only that.. he had the audacity to thank her before he left?
I was disgusted.
I know she doesn't want my pity... she said so herself... she wants me to learn from her experiences and stand up for myself... but that night... being a victim of date rape... her story was gut wrenching, to say the least.
As I walked out of the room, thoughts and questions flew through my mind. I didn't really know how exactly to take everything... then I paused. I settled down a bit, found an area where I could be alone, and continued to process.
God... how badly did your heart break in that moment?
Because mine is extremely achy... but you... you were there.
God... how hard was it to watch someone you love so much be used and abused like that?
The pictures in my head are disturbing enough... how did you do it?
God... what about him?
How hard was it to watch him, who you love just as much as her, try to fill a void in his life with something other than You?
God... how badly did your heart break in that moment not only for her, but for him?
I wonder what his story is. I wonder if he regrets what he did or if he is still trying to please himself with the other women he finds.
God... have either of them truly experienced your healing and abounding love since that night?
If they have... thank you. You deserve so much praise.
If they haven't... oh God, I pray that one day they do.
They deserve it.
